Psalm 139...or My Nappy

 

A Psalm 139 Day, A Psalm 139 Life – or My Nappy

 

“O LORD, You have searched me and known me” (Psalm 139:1).

 

“Search me, O God, and know my heart; try me and know my anxious thoughts; and see if there be any hurtful way in me, and lead me in the everlasting way” (Psalm 139:24).

 

This is my Psalm 139 Day. I typically read Psalm 139 on March 19, June 26, September 19, and December 19. I read Psalm 139 to remind me that I am not an accident looking for a place to happen, I read it to remind me that my hope is ever and always in Jesus. I read Psalm 139 to remember how much my Father cares for me…even when “I make my bed in hell.”

 

I often point others to Psalm 139 because I want them to know that they also are not accidents looking for a place to happen, but rather that their lives are in God’s hands.

 

If you have ever made your bed in hell this is a pretty good psalm. If you have ever run from God this psalm can be helpful. If you have ever known darkness so dark that you can’t see your hand in front of your face, this psalm is for you.

 

If you have ever looked at your life and wondered just how you could have messed up so badly, this psalm can remind you that even if you don’t understand yourself (and I don’t think any of us have much capacity along this line) that God your Father and Creator knowns all about you.

 

In our moments of arrogance and pomposity this psalm can put us in our place; we really don’t know all that much, we need our God to search us, purify us, and to lead us in “the everlasting Way.” The Way, of course, is Jesus Christ (John 14:6).

 

The psalm begins with an acknowledgment and confession that God has searched us and known us. It concludes with a plea for God to continue searching us and knowing our hearts, for Him to test us and know our thoughts, to deal with hurtful and sinful and selfish ways within us, and to lead us in the everlasting Way (see Hebrews 4:12 – 13; Psalm 19:12 – 14).

 

In a sense the psalm ends where it begins, with God searching us…but not quite, there is a difference, a significant difference.

 

In verse 1 we acknowledge that God has been searching us. In verses 23 and 24 we cry out to God that He will continue to search us, purify us, save us from toxic ways, and lead us into the Way of Jesus. In other words, in verse 1 we have the realization that God has been searching us, in verses 23 and 24 we plea with God to continue His gracious work within us.

 

We may live a long time before we arrive at the realization of verse 1. We may go our own way for many years before, by God’s mercy, it dawns on us that God has been searching our lives, our souls, our hearts and our minds – that He knows not just our every action, but our thoughts and our motives. When the light of this awareness breaks upon us we can either run and hide, or we can say, “O my! Help me dear God.”

 

If we will accept His mercy, then we will come to know that His intimate searching of us is a deep expression of His tender love for us in Jesus Christ – then we will come to know that we need His searching and trying and purifying every moment of every day, we will know that we cannot live without Him and His Presence.

 

In the Garden, Adam and Eve hid from God and from each other. In the New Jerusalem there is no hiding from God or from one another, all is transparent in that City in which God alone is Light. As Psalm 139 demonstrates, we cannot really hide from God. We may be like toddlers playing “peek-a-boo”, thinking that if we cover our eyes so that we can’t see God that God can’t see us. Isn’t that foolish?

 

Yet isn’t that the way we so often live…within and without the professing church?

 

I have often said that on my best days my heavenly Father needs to change my nappy.  This may not be an elegant conclusion to this reflection, but it is most certainly the truth.