Monday, June 15, 2026

Touching Jesus - Part One

Background: Mark 5:21 - 34. 


THE SETTING – A PRISON CELL IN ROME, 64 A.D.

 

            Oh…hi…good morning.  Didn’t see you there…kinda daydreaming.  Not really daydreaming per se, more like recollecting…remembering. 

            What are you in here for?  Quite the group of you.  Have you already been to trial or are you awaiting an appearance before the Roman magistrate?

            Oh…sorry…I didn’t introduce myself, I’m Nathan ben Eleazar…a Jew from Capernaum in Galilee.  Today’s my big day…and I was just recollecting about another big day…that day 31 years ago…long before Nero was emperor…31 years ago…on that crowd-laden dusty road between Capernaum and Chorazin.

            I was with my Aunt Ruth that day, my poor aunt Ruth…at least I thought of her as my poor aunt Ruth before that day…but not after.

            Ruth is my mother’s sister…as a matter of fact she’s in a cell just down this corridor…but that’s another matter…of course this is her big day too…this is a big day for both of us…but back to that dust-filled choking road…

            My Mom died when I was three years old of something I think you call influenza.  Shortly after that my father was killed by robbers as he was transporting bundles of linen and wool from Jerusalem down to Jericho.  That left me an orphan at almost 4 years old.  I have vague memories of my parents, shadows if you will…aunt Ruth has done her best to keep the memories alive…and in fact to give me many more as she tells me about my parents and their young lives before their untimely deaths.

            Aunt Ruth took me into her home and raised me like her own son.  Did I mention that Ruth is a widow?  Her husband also died young in a shipping accident…leaving her a childless widow. So she was a widow without children and I was a child without parents…and she took me in…and loved me and raised me.

            Then, when I was 16 years old, Aunt Ruth got sick.  At first I didn’t notice much about the sickness.  Her skin began to pale, her energy decline…at the end of each workday – aunt Ruth made her living by dyeing linen and wool for weavers and tailors – she was exhausted.  She began going to bed earlier than usual…her smile wasn’t as quick to show as in the past…I knew something was wrong but didn’t know what…

            When I began to question her about her health she’d put me off by saying, “Oh, it’s nothing.  It will be better soon.”  But it didn’t…it didn’t get better.  In fact it got a good deal worse.  There were days when she couldn’t work all day…and an occasional day when she had to stay home.

            I kept after her to see a physician, but again she’d put me off by saying, “Oh, it will get better.”

            Now we weren’t rich by any stretch of the imagination, but we weren’t poor…at least in the beginning of her sickness.  In fact our life was somewhat comfortable.  The business of dyeing linen and wool isn’t a bad living as long as you meet your quotas with the tailors and weavers.  I had learned the trade from aunt Ruth and we were doing pretty well financially.

            One afternoon as I was sitting with the young men of the town sipping wine…it was our afternoon break from work…little Joseph ben Levi ran up to me yelling, “Ruth has fallen ill, Ruth has fallen ill, come quickly!!!”

            Aunt Ruth had fainted, passed out, in our little dye shop, hit her head on one of the dye soaking bins and was unconscious and bleeding from her head.  We got her home, put her to bed, and called a physician.

            After examining her, the physician left her sleeping area in our little home and came into the living room, he told me that Ruth was awake and that her head wound was only superficial…but then he told me that she was weak from loss of blood…loss of blood not from the head wound, but loss of blood due to something he called “a condition peculiar to the female sex,” and that he could do nothing to help her.

            Our lives changed that day…

            My heart was broken and filled with fear for my aunt Ruth.  I had lost my father and mother and now there was the threat of losing my precious aunt.  I embarked on a mission to find a physician who could cure her illness.

            The weeks, months and years that followed are somewhat of a blur…a collage of work, physicians, dwindling money, anxiety, fear, more work, more physicians, less and less money, hopelessness, despair.

            Ruth worked some days…seldom all day…struggling with me to keep our bills paid and our business running…but I insisted on spending whatever need be on a cure.  And so I contacted physician after physician in our area…and they…they virtually all came…and examined Ruth…and took our money…and said…they all said…that Aunt Ruth had, “a condition peculiar to the female sex,” and that there was nothing they could do.

            Year after year went by…and I saw my brave aunt’s health continue to deteriorate.  She was stubborn and determined, and loving and tender…but sheer willpower could only help her get from day-to-day, it could not heal her.

            Early in the twelfth year of her affliction I determined to make one last attempt to fine someone who could cure her.  Our business was struggling, for at this point Ruth could hardly work 3 or 4 hours a day, and while I was working and doing the best I could…our money was going to doctors and I couldn’t afford to pay someone to assist me in the business…I was falling behind in our contracts and was losing customers.

            At any rate…I had heard of the wonderful physicians there were in Egypt…and I heard that one of their esteemed physicians had come to Chorazin to set up practice.  I thought that surely this was our opportunity…perhaps our last opportunity…for a cure.  I knew it would be expensive, it might take all we had…but we had to try…we just had to try.

            Oh, I know what you’re thinking…you’re wondering how we, as Jews, could possibly go to an unclean Egyptian doctor.  Well, it’s not as if the doctor was the only one who was unclean…for please remember…that because my aunt Ruth had this perpetual bleeding due to “a condition peculiar to the female sex”…that my aunt Ruth was unclean as well…and that since I lived with my aunt, and touched her in my care for her…that I was also unclean.

            Yes, for twelve years she…that is we…even since that day when she fainted in our workshop and that first physician had diagnosed her…ever since then…we had been unclean…she because of her condition and me because of my association with her.

            We could not go into other peoples’ homes, they could not come into ours, we could not touch others…we could not even go to the synagogue on the Sabbath…we were unclean…my aunt Ruth and I, Nathan ben Eleazar…were unclean.  I could touch her and she could touch me…but no one else would touch us.  Twelve years without being touched by other people…twelve long isolated years.

            And so, in the twelfth year of her sickness, of her being in “a condition peculiar to the female sex”…in that year…we took the last money we had…down to our last penny…and went to Chorazin to see the Egyptian doctor. 

When I had made an initial trip to first consult with him he gave me hope, he indicated that he had cured many female conditions, that he had prescriptions for cures of all kinds and that surely he could help my aunt Ruth…and so we took our last bit of money, money that we had been hoarding…and we went.

            While Ruth was in the examining room I prayed to the God of my fathers, the God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob, in my heart I called out to Him for mercy, mercy on my aunt Ruth…and I tried to believe, I tried to believe that He would finally heal my poor poor aunt.

            And then the door opened and my aunt Ruth and the Egyptian doctor came out…and I head these words from the doctor, “Your aunt has a condition peculiar to the female sex and I do not have a cure for it.”

            Putting my arm around my aunt I led her out of the office for the long walk home.  No money, a failing business, little food in the pantry, broken hearts…and no hope.


to be continued...

            

Thursday, June 11, 2026

Seeing the Invisible (6)

Below is a note I sent a friend this morning, this is what "seeing the invisible" looks like in my life and marriage. I'm reminded of Hebrews 11:27, Mose endured as seeing Him who is invisible. 



In thinking about our conversation yesterday…

 

Paul writes that we are to endure hardship as good soldiers of Jesus Christ (2 Timothy 2:3). I suppose this is the way I was raised in Christ, raised to lose my life for Him and others (Mark 8:34 – 38). Not that I’ve always lived this way, but it is the way I was taught. In addition to Watchman Nee’s Normal Christian Life, I think I may have given you Andrew Murray’s Abide in Christ, and I think I gave you Discipleship on the Edge by Darrell W. Johnson. None of these books are focused on “me, myself, and I,” they are all centered on the Christ of the Cross and the Cross of Christ.

 

While I don’t think of having a particular life verse, if I had to choose one it might be Galatians 2:20, and a life passage would be Mark 8:34 – 38. When I was in the Army (and I imagine it was the same for you in the Navy), we never began our days with a group hug and our sergeants asking us how our feelings were that day. We were there to serve, to obey, to function as a team – we were on mission.

 

So with us…we are here to worship God, build one another up in Christ, and go to the world with the Gospel – the stool has three legs.

 

Our greatest temptation, perhaps, is to avoid the Cross. Friends do not let friends avoid the Cross. Friends do not counsel friends to escape the Cross. Peter insisted that Jesus not go to the Cross and Jesus said, “Get behind me Satan! You are a stumbling block to Me; for you are not setting our mind on the things of God, but man” (Matthew 16:23).

 

I was never taught, nor have I thought, that God was interested in making me a better version of myself, He is interested in bringing me to the end of myself and transforming me into the image of Jesus Christ as a new creation in Him (Rom. 8:29; Gal. 2:20; 6:14; Col. 3:1 – 4).

 

While Vickie and I realize that there is emotional and psychological trauma and stress associated with what we have experienced – we do not deny that for a moment – we also realize that we must look to Jesus to walk with us through this. No doubt He uses others to walk with us – Paul and his friends “despaired even of life” (2 Cor. 1:8) but they also saw God working in them for the blessing of others (2 Cor. 1:4, 9).

 

In addition, we both know that we are closer to leaving this pilgrimage today than we were yesterday – and we are living in the light of that knowledge; we will be in the Holy Presence of Jesus sooner rather than later – we are in the portal that transitions us from this life into the glorious Life to Come in Christ and with the saints.

 

Around 1999 I was visiting a friend, Dan Smick, in the hospital in Boston. Dan was married with two young sons, both under 7 years old. Dan’s liver was failing as a result of cancer treatments and he was hoping for a liver transplant – in essence Dan was dying, he would go to be with Christ in a few months. Dan was the director of the Marketplace Network in Boston, a ministry similar to Needle’s Eye in Richmond.

 

As I entered the hospital room Dan was asleep, so I sat down in a chair next to his bed and was quiet. When he awoke and saw me he smiled and said, “O Bob, I’m glad you’re here. I was just thinking about some ways to share Jesus with others. Let me talk to you about them.”

 

I will never forget this. Dan was dying, sure there was still hope for healing, but it was slim. Dan had a wife and two young sons, and he loved them deeply. Dan could have been feeling sorry for himself on many levels, but instead he was thinking of how to share Jesus with others.

 

When we face hardships, when we face pressure and pain, the question should not be, “How can I get out of this?” It should be, “How does Jesus want to reveal Himself to me through this? How can I share Jesus with others through this? How is God using this to transform me into the image of His Son?”

 

I really can’t imagine living any other way.

 

Just some thoughts…

 

Bob