As we work
through the final two paragraphs of Vos’s message, we are considering: “Here
it is impossible for us to tell how truly and to what extent our relation to
God is a relation of pure, disinterested love in which we seek Him for his own sake.
There, when all want and sin-frailty shall have slipped away from us, we shall
be able to tell.”
In the last post
we noted that there are three components to the above; “here,” “there,” and
“pure, disinterested love,” then we considered the “there” of the three. Now
let’s ask whether in this life we can really know how much we love God, that
is, “to what extent our relation to God is a relation of pure, disinterested love.”
Or we might phrase it, “Can we really know the full extent of our subjective
– experiential spiritual condition while “here” on this earth?”
I am reminded of
Psalm 19:12 – 14: “Who can discern his errors? Acquit me of hidden faults. Also
keep back Your servant from presumptuous sins; let them not rule over me; then
I will be blameless, and I shall be acquitted of great transgression. Let the
words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in Your sight, O
LORD, my rock and my Redeemer.”
Then we have
Psalm 139:23 – 24: “Search me, O God, and know my heart; try me and know my
anxious thoughts; and see if there be any hurtful way in me, and lead me in the
everlasting way.”
Whenever I think
about spiritual formation into the image of Jesus Christ, I have the sensation
of being on the beach and pondering the ocean – its vastness and depth are
overwhelming and comforting at the same time. Its sounds are usually soothing,
but they can also be roiling and threatening. In some coastal areas, riptides are
ever – present, in others their potential is there. While there are typically
no visible markers, such as buoys, in the ocean, the seasoned sailor can read
the currents, the skies, the stars; this reading can be enhanced with instruments.
All of the foregoing has its counterpart in our pilgrimage in Christ. Most
professing Christians sail within sight of land…assuming they enter the ocean
at all, but those who trust the Holy Spirit and the Bible can anticipate the
adventure of a lifetime.
When we recently
explored 2 Cor. 3:17ff, Col. 3:1ff, and 1 John 3:1ff, we saw that our lives are
to be focused on Jesus Christ, oriented toward Jesus Christ, and that it is as
we behold Jesus Christ that we are transformed into His image. This is
framework for our pilgrimage in this life.
Within this
context and understanding we are told to examine ourselves in 1 Cor. 11:28, 2
Cor. 13:5, and Gal. 6:4. In Romans 12:1 – 2, we are told that, in light of
Romans chapters 1 – 11 that we are to present ourselves as living sacrifices,
not being conformed to the world and the present age, but rather transformed by
the renewing of our minds that we might prove what the perfect will of God is in
our lives. This “presentation” of ourselves includes Romans 6:12 – 13, in which
we present our “members as instruments of righteousness to God.” This certainly
speaks to us of being engaged with the Holy Spirit and the Word of God – the
grace of God empowers us and acts upon us, our grace – enabled response is
critical.
Then we have the
enigmatic Philippians 2:12 – 13: “So then, my beloved, just as you have always
obeyed, not as in my presence only, but now much more in my absence, work out
your salvation with fear and trembling; for it is God who is at work in you,
both to will and to work for His good pleasure.” Our working out of our
salvation, of our holistic growth and trajectory in Jesus Christ, is only
possible because God is at work in us – God is doing both the willing
and the working. This is how we live, this is the dance of grace;
and a mysterious dance it is.
I agree with Vos
that it is impossible to measure our relationship with God in this life and
that it is impossible to really know the complete nature of our love for Him…at
least in one sense. After all, God’s love so far surpasses our love that our
love, as it is transformed into His love, will always (I think) be growing in God
– God is infinite are we are not, so I cannot imagine a time or place…whether
here and now or in the far reaches of eternity…when His glorious love will not always
be overwhelming us and our love (yes, yes, here again we have a mystery).
And so our orientation
is not self-examination, it is not self-critique, but rather our orientation
is Jesus Christ and the perfect and complete salvation which He has bought for
us on the Cross, Resurrection, and Ascension. The Christian life is not about
tallying up debits and credits on a daily basis; we are justified by Jesus Christ…we
must not fall into the trap of measuring debits and credits, and this includes the
process of transformation into His image – this is a work of grace and of the Holy
Spirit, it is not a work of self-righteousness. As Jesus says in John 15,
without Him we can’t do anything.
However, this does
not mean that we don’t experience conviction of sin in our lives, and that
we don’t experience a continuing awareness of areas in which we are called to grow
into the image of our Lord Jesus.
I’ll pick this
back up in the next post.